Why Tim Hates HIV
Why I Hate HIV
by Tim
Nothing
scares me
more
than
someone
who knows,
with certainty,
what is right for me.
It's been a bummer to say the least. Not because it's like cancer, something you can touch and see, but because it's a virus, that hasn't been touched or seen, but theorized and assumed to exist and cause harm. Something that the label of it alone could account for most deaths attributed to the collection of diseases called 'AIDS'. Of course, getting into this debate is a tongue-twister for this and other earth-bound misfits, as the dissenters and the mainstream say different things. The search for truth is an ongoing discovery. Anyone who says they have it, one might want to be a bit wary of. All I have, any of us have is personal experience/knowledge and intuition, and that is the highest voice I listen to. And it tells me that I have the power to control my life and health, no one else. So forgive me if I don't bend over and take it up the ass like so many in our shepparded society.
Doctor do no harm, doctor do no harm. Which part of this does doctor not understand? If it smells like a fish, tastes like a fish, then it probably stinks. Unfortunately the myth that hiv causes aids isn't the only grand lie of modern times. Can a president and his cronies really have the welfare of humanity at heart when they kill 1,000,000 in the name of 3,000? "You shall know them by their fruit." Good quote from the very foundation of Western Sociey (alla Jesus), or at least the idea of it. As Ghandi put it - "Western Civilization? I think it would be a good idea." No, it seems the standard of today though probably has been going on for a very long time is to cheat and kill to preserve what you and yours have. Not a recipe for world peace, do ya think?
No, living with the label of hiv for twelve years without sickness/without medications (but a lot of emotional pain and rejection) has been an eyeopener to me to all the bullshit that's been going on. From being told you're going to die unless you take these meds to lack of respect and understanding from just about everbody in society as to why it might be difficult to have 'normal relationships'/a career, life has basically been a living hell for this heterosexual male since 'diagnosis'. Thanks Mom. I mean, just imagine (most don't have to try very hard) how difficult it is to find a relationship where both parties have similar feelings, beliefs and values, that 'Mr./Mrs. Right' that you'd want to spend your life with. It's pretty difficult. Then imagine what it's like trying to find that when you have to insert, "by the way, I'm one of those hiv freaks" or risk going to jail. Almost enough to make one cry, not that anyone cares.
Has the label of hiv destroyed more lives than the virus itself? Can beliefs really be that powerful? Shall I write a paper on it and insert common sense here?
The ones they told us we could trust, are the least reliable. Power corrupts. We're not going to take it anymore.
